(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [19 Feb 2008|12:14am] [ mood | depressed ] been sitting here, thinking about how my family's on the verge of falling apart, just wishing i had someone to talk to. i hate everyone and everything. fuck marriage. fuck religion. fuck education. i just don't care anymore.

(5 drew blood |every hour on the hour) And on the seventh day, God wrote a book... [15 Oct 2007|08:44pm] and that god's name is Chris Jericho. Can't wait to get you in the mail, bebe.

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [25 Sep 2007|11:09am] 1. Lost my ETiD bottle opener. Gonna miss you bud. :[ 2. Halo 3 kinda rips a fair amount of ass. :]

(3 drew blood |every hour on the hour) P.S. [14 Aug 2007|09:10am] [ music | curl up and die ] To the dumb whore working the first station at Chipotle yesterday: Rice and Beans always go on a burrito. To Lisa Lampanelli: We get it. Your snatch is nasty and you love black dudes. Shut up already.

(every hour on the hour) [13 Aug 2007|08:54pm] [ mood | depressed ] The severity of just how horrible my life is going to become has set in just now. I was at Nick's house of a few hours today, when 6:00 rolls around and Hunter decides to head home. Now for a bit of a back story, Hunter's heading to ASU on Wednesday morning. So when he's getting ready to head home, I wish him luck in school, then he says, "Oh man, I probably won't end up seeing you again." That's when the severity of everything set in. I mean, when graduation rolled around, I really didn't give a shit, because I figured I'd keep in contact with the people I really want to. But now, it doesn't seem quite so easy. What if we all simply just drift apart and never reconnect again? I don't want it to happen, but it just seems like the nature of the beast. I'm just not ready for it to happen now. I realize that I should stop living in the past, but the past was much better than the present is and the future will be. Maybe it's just me taking everything for granted, but I would really do anything to get back to the way things were. Only these Modern Life is War lyrics could really sum up every emotion flowing through me currently. In this life there are no clean breaks... But starting again is a chance that you can take. I always thought that someday we would overcome the bad luck And from the burden the gift would come. Maybe I should have known better. But I know we're coming closer to the end of whatever this has been. When you're 16 you don't know what forever means. When you are 23 you couldn't be more sorry to say. That after all this growing up together all the good has gone away. Sometimes the boys that should be yours best friends become strangers with familiar faces. Just don't tell me that it's all too far gone... That they weren't meant to live on... And don't let go. I just don't want to have to pretend... If we're not in this together... If we're just stuck inside our own heads. And I'm sorry that it took me so long to find the words to write the song That we can all still truly believe in But I truly believe that we can still start again.

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) Note to self, must save up for: [11 Jul 2007|08:34pm] [ music | wesley willis ] Wii: Wii-Zapper Resident Evil: Umbrella Chronicles Ghost Squad Super Smash Bros. Brawl Super Mario Galaxy NiGHTS Mario & Sonic at the Olympic Games Mario Kart Wii Wii Fit Madden 2008 DS: Mario Party DS Zelda: Phantom Hourglass Contra 4 Brain Age 2 PS2: Smackdown vs. RAW 2008 Guitar Hero 3 ----------------------------------------- Ugh, now I just need to work on making some money.

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [05 Jun 2007|09:44pm] If I do anything with my life, in the next six months, it'll be to dress up as a member of Slipknot for Halloween. Kind of depressing that that's the only thing that's certain right now.

(4 drew blood |every hour on the hour) good news all around [15 May 2007|05:11pm] i may not be able to walk at graduation since i just found some form, stating my participation in the ceremony, that should've been turned in on the fourth. victory.

(4 drew blood |every hour on the hour) You god is non-existant. [04 Apr 2007|06:40pm] [ music | Refused ] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Westboro_Baptist_Church If only they were to realize how wrong they are.

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [14 Mar 2007|05:33pm] I took a shower today and now I feel good.

(7 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [14 Feb 2007|01:11pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | Veda/Vedera - "The Falling Kind" ] Anthony Green wrote this, but it really made me think and I felt compelled to repost it. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- In first grade we were allowed to make cards and bring in gifts to give out to other classmates and if my memory serves me right(which it never has and probably wont) I received none, or like two( one from the teacher and one from the other kid who made ones for everybody).-slight disappointment-- The next years rules changed -so if you bring in treats Feb. 14, YOU MUST BRING ONE FOR EVERYONE! Fuck that. I know it sounds bitter- but we ve all been there-it's a wired feeling holiday-often biased to couples , but when you're a little kid shit tends to fuck with you. it's strange messages we send to children(or eachother) --- I used to read cracked magazine a lot as a youngster , and every year my mom would put little candies and treats out for me and my brothers before we went to school in the morning, and in an attempted to get me something I would enjoy, my mom got me some boxers with hearts on them. a little box of red hots, and a copy of what she thought was gone be like a mad, or cracked magazine but was very obviously titled super teen, and was covered in young actor and pop star dudes. Lots of dudes. It was hilarious . But she was so disappointed at herself for it----- when I finally explained my outburst of laughter she felt all shitty , shitty-for no reason. As so many people do today --It was the effort that mattered right ------wrong I guess. There didn't need to be any. You can tell love by its feeling not it form. Sentiments are lovely but are to easily misunderstood. Tangible-- is too easy. Fuck valentines day . Just one day??? ---out of over three hundred -just one and its dedicated to commemorating the cheapest aspects of a truly honest and committed relationship. that's fucked up in my opinion. Im not sure if it's a massive conspiracy or what, but we should be reminding ourselves of this shit and doing little extra things for each other everyday, and I know this is not an original statement. But today lets try and tell people we don't know very well, or people who frustrate us in our lives, something nice about themselves. Think about the people we cant stand, and why. Maybe even reach out to them, old friends, falling outs. Family you might have beef with. If we re going to designate just one day for something, shouldn't it be something that is a little bit more challenging than buying flowers. Something we put off? Shouldn't it aim to make us a more aware people? I don't know shit. But today im going to reevaluate why ive pushed some people away and not others. And im not buying anything . Happy bullshit day baby girl. <3 XoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoXoXXoOx a-

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [17 Oct 2006|01:04pm] I'm losing the will to move on. Caring about anything becomes progressively harder as time goes on.

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [11 Aug 2006|06:12pm] [ music | KSE ] I will never be satisfied.

(5 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [01 Aug 2006|12:19pm] [ music | Brown Eyed Deception ] I GOT A FUCKING NINTENDO DS!

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) <3333333333333 [16 Jul 2006|05:23pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | This is my lover's tryst ] ( Soon enough, you will be mine )

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) Sweet eBay haul dood. [09 Jul 2006|11:41am] Totaled up to $50 :]

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [25 Jun 2006|09:15pm] I miss Codeseven. :[ Why couldn't some shitty band like Chiodos have broken up instead of them.

(every hour on the hour) [17 Jun 2006|05:44pm] Hopefully I'll be able to get on Vaux's guestlist for the Warped Tour. *Finger crossed big time*

(4 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [06 Jun 2006|08:04pm] 6/6/06 - Graduation Day. We take back everything we said about you.

(1 drew blood |every hour on the hour) [05 Jun 2006|02:07pm] Interview with Vans at 4:00. *fingers crossed*

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